I think I am going nuts! Really! I can not understand how I am feeling. My friend Melody calls it mood swing. I call it apathy. I feel nothing. I feel all emotion has been drained off me. Is this possible? I am crying but I am not sad or lonely or feeling personal pain. I laugh but I am not exactly happy about anything. True, I am grateful for all that i have now. But I can’t help but wonder. Am I still normal??? It seems that I am now dependent on the stimulus that’s in front of me.. Videos from You Tube are helpful, but they are not drawing my real feelings— Well, this too shall pass….